Return

Hi everyone, I'm back for another post
After a while I decided to go back, there's a lot going on lately ...I have so many news to share ... but I decided that I will not tell it all.
First, I have to tell you that some things are finally getting right ... I got a good job, but that's something I'll talk about later.

And secondly, I'm going to start living alone, I'm looking for a home, I'm going to start guiding my life ... Start taking responsibility ... maybe for a lot of people this is a problem, but not for me ... I like having my space, my things ...My mother is still a little bit behind with the fact that I go to live alone but, this is life ... Children grow up and we have to accept this ...I confess that to get a house is still a bit complicated, I have not yet found a house that I like, and this is making me depressed because I am really motivated, and decided to start this chapter of my life.

There are some things that still make me a little scared, but I think it's normal ... and either way if I deprive my life just because I'm afraid, then I'll never be able to move forward.

This post is just a little information, later I will explain everything in detail. I'll share everything I can ... just this moment I needed to show how much my life has been a mess, with all the changes ... And Christmas coming, I really want to share everything but it's a matter of time.
I hope you'll stay there when I come back to share everything with you that will be soon.
Lately, I wish you a great Christmas

@BehindTheWORLD 

Actress Joana Duarte

Hello everybody !!!
 today I am just sharing with you  one portuguese actress that I love
She have a blog but not her real blog, the blog she created when she began the first portuguese series/novel and the blog was part of series. (just if you want to see).

Her name is Joana Pereira Duarte 

  She was born in  September 28, 1986 (29 years old)
Lisbon.




She started her career in 1998.


ACTRESS

Joana became popularized In the series Strawberries with Sugar (most popular portuguese series) III  where she played the role of  Matilde Gouveia. And Matilde had a blog ( the such blog )
where she recounted her life
 which basically sums up the whole
 third season of the series because it was
 the main female character.

moranguitatvi.blogspot.fr

 a starring . Participated later in OTHER TV productions , particularly 
in Ilha dos Amores As Catarina Medeiros
 in LET ME LOVE as Diana
 in Eye to Eye As Anabela ,
in  My Love as Maria Lopes Gouveia  
and , more recently , in My Angel  as Teresa Girão. 

Her artistic and literary training consists of:
 course of interpretation of the vocational school of Cascais theater ,
 private lessons with Angela Durans 
and workshop " The scene Dramaturgy " in IJP Lisbon .

AFTER " My Angel " ,
 she decided to give a new direction to her life
 and become air hostess To return at the TV in 2014 . 

MODEL 

At the moment Joana Duarte is represented by the agency "L'Agence" 
 Finding in the Talent category .
she was invited to be the cover of numerous magazines , 
including GQ ( Editions November 2005 and December 2009 ) ,
 Maxmen ( anniversary issue in April 2008 ), 
Edit Mag ( July / August 2010 ) ,
 Onfire ( September 2010 edition ) , among others.
 Also participated in huge Parades , 
some alluding to the Agency that representing her , 
as the outside Fashion 2010 Held in Troia with Other Agency Representatives. 
In 2012 , the actress was the cover of Playboy IN PHOTOS Made in Beach.

well , I hope you enjoyed
this is just one of the many beautiful Portuguese actresses , 
and undoubtedly one of that I most admire.

@BehindTheWorld

Breathing SPACE

I have been missing ....
Things go a little shuffling
Sometimes it seems like everything is going very well sometimes it seems like I'm in a dark rut
Problems, problems and more problems
That's what life comes down to, not just my life ... I think the lives of all people
It was all so much easier if we screamed and all the problems disappeared.
I wish I was invisible.
To be able to disappear from the view of all people whenever I want to have my moment
Whenever I want to be alone it seems that everyone needs something
However when I need help nobody can help me ....
I need some breathing space.
That's all I need

Bad DAYS

Do you know when you wake up? And it seems that nothing is right. Nothing seems to make sense.
Sometimes I wake up feeling like this ...
I spend the day thinking about things that have already happened.
bad things.
It feels like I feel shattered inside. It seems that something is missing ...
I feel like I'm alone in the world even if there are a lot of people around me.
My head goes round and round without being able to find an exit
And when night comes, and I'm alone in my room, lying in bed I start to think about everything I've already been through ...
Is it worth it to be part of a world where people hurt each other?
I cry alone, I prefer it.
Because I think if I tell my pain to the world no one will understand me
The people I love hurting me, the people I trust cheating on me, the people to who I give my heart destroyd him.

I know I'm not the only person in the world who feels this way.
And I think that's why I can understand other people's problems ...
With all that I've had to fight for, with all the pain I have to deal with ...
It's easy for me to understand the pain of others, but it's hard to share my pain with them.
I think even the person I least like in the world, I can understand
I do not know if this is good or bad ... but even though I'm suffering I can not see the sadness in people ... just because I really know how is felling this way
Even with my bad temper, even having to tell the truth in people's faces I can not see them feeling sad
I can be kind of rude the way I talk to them, but I can not see them suffering ...
Because people are not rude when they talk to me, but then they stab me on the back

I know there are good people you can trust, but it's so weird ...
I'm not the type of person who talks about what's hurting me
Maybe I should but I just can not
With everything I've been through in my life, everything I've suffered ... it's hard for me to trust people ...
When I see happiness in the eyes of all the people who have already hurt me, I do not feel envious, I feel sad that these people have taken my happiness, because they trampled me when they no longer needed me
that hurts
really hurts
I fight every day to forget the bad things that they did to me, so as not to hold a grudge. And I forgive each of them but I can not forget.

@BehindTheWORLD

My wound HURTS

I was just a little girl when you decide to leave you said I go

 but I come back was not true but i believed

I was just a little baby when mom says

don't cry he comes it was more stronger than me

it was my dad , who I needed so come back dont  leave me

then the years fly I grew up and you will need to know who I am

Did you know me?

 now I know what was the reason what makes you go
I could not believe that you leave us for someone and you do not wanted
know how we were to leave us
can you tell me what was the sensation
another woman and forget that you had have children
how can you? do something like this

I don't know if you know that you left me

then please do not go back more was my mother who made me who I am who I am today
so now you can go and forget all you know stay away and not come back
because
My wound hurts

@BehindTheWORLD

Happy Birthday KING

I can say that I'm proud to be a belieber.
23 years after you had just born, on February 1, 1994 

And today you are the man who makes me proud
 

 
10 years at your side
10 years of pride
10 years of feeling
I do not want to know what people are talking about
You are, you always were, and you will always remain my reason for many things.
You were the one who put me up when I was down.
And I will never forget everything you did for me, everything that made me feel, and everything that you made me to be, even if you do not know it.
I love you with all my heart Justin Drew Bieber
Happy birthday  MY KING
YOU are EVERYTHING to me, never forget that ...
Always on your side .... a belieber who loves you <3
 
happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you 
happy bithday dear justin ,
happy birthday to you
LOVE YOU 

@BehindTheWORLD

Last Summer LOVE

Last summer I met a guy ....We live very good things this summer, together.But our history, had a very bad end .... more for meI discovered some things that left me completely shattered.I loved him, I really loved himBut he broke my heart.First I discovered that he slept with one of my sisters, and then I did not give him what he wanted ... I loved him but I was not ready to have my first time .... I always heard that our First time should be with someone special, and he was special I thought he was ... I just was not ready yet.One day he came to my house, he was going to spend the night with me, so he tried to move forward but I said no, because I was not ready for this ...He got very bored and left ...I did not know what to do ....The next day in the afternoon I went with my family and some friends in a bar that we used to go, he showed up.But he was not alone. He appeared at the bar hugged with my best friend ... and when he saw me he kissed her in front of me ...I did not cry, I did not say anything ... but my heart was completely shattered ....First my own sister and then my best friend ...I was devastated for many days ...I stayed more than two months at home, I did not leave home, I did not talk to anyone ...
But then a friend that I have for a long time came to visit me.I did not want to talk to him but he made me listen to him.He made me realize that I was just wasting my time, he made me realize that while I was locked in my room, the person I was in love with was having fun with my best friend.He made me lift my head, and realize that it was no use to suffer for a guy who does not deserve my suffering ...He helped me a lot, in this complicated moment of my life, I owe it to himBut in spite of everything I learned a great lesson, and I realized that if all this happened then it is because he did not love me, it is because he did not deserve to have the privilege that my first time was with him ...He was not the one!And right now, after so long ... I have my friends, I have my family, and honestly I think I'm okay this way.I often see my ex, but now I look at him with a smile on my face as if nothing had happened ...
All this was very complicated, but you have to fall to learn ...
And I do not need someone like him on my side
I need somebody who really loves me

@BehindTheWORLD 

I Just WANT Fly

I still remember this wake up So many days to write had a gleam in the eyes.
It was age to learn then time passed us by was so much to share
And if yesterday we felt alone tomorrow can not arrive
I grew up in the shadow of a dream what did they draw for me?
I told secrets in the moonlight those endless nights
I run behind a horizon made in my measure
I will find the color to paint my life
I know you will one day understand that life is anyway
To be able to win and to lose
Growing up between no and yes
Today I am different
I saved the pain and the pain
Let's live in the present.
And make it much better like our love
Why do not you want to let me go?
The world is outside and I already have wings to climb  
I want to fly high
As free as emotion
That still makes us believe what the heart says
I'm getting closer and closer to be what I want
Step by step you will realize that I'm a woman now

@BehindTheWORLD

Love?

When we talk about love dont seem to make sense.

A lot of people dont know what love is like.

They say "I Love You" as if it was the most normal thing in the world but is not.

They say "I Love You" as if to say "Hello".

They say "I Love You" in vain.

It makes me REALLY confused because I think love has  made to be felt not to be spoken.

But You Can Love, everybody can:

love your family                                                 your friends                                       

something or someone really important for you            your boyfriend or girlfriend

     

even if that love is not reciprocated.

But one thing for sure is that you cant begin to love one day and stop loving the next day.

Love builds up,has barriers and has even disagreements.

love hurts, it does suffer.

but also makes you happy, you just need to be with people that who loves you and you will see.

People say thats not everyone who can love but honestly I dont think.

everyone can love and everyone can feel...

But first you need to learn how to build this love.

You cant force you have to let it flow.

When you love you want to  do good things. 

Smile and make others smile.

Spread your joy and show to the world what you are feeling!

Nothing else matters

                                                

Love is different from like

Love is different from passion

People ask:

       "But what is the difference ?"

-Well, The difference I dont know but I hope to learn with time.

 Because the only thing I know is that love is something beautiful and strong that needs to be felt.

@BehindTheWORLD

- "But the boys and the girls

They don't know

What love is like

Love is like appreciation

Mixed in a double cup of sprite"  - JustinBieber

Salvar

MUSIC !? o.O

Music

What is music?

what music means?

I don't know what music means for you but for me is something really awesome, crazy and important.

I feel alive when I hear.

Its like if everything around me disappeared.

Just me and the music in my little world.

As if nothing else mattered

As if music were talking to me

As if we were connected

I'm living in this world and sometimes I think that I dont belong to him.

Have you ever feel that?

I think everyone already felt it, even if it was only once.

So when it happens I just take my headphones

,turn on the music in the last sound, I close my eyes

and I try to forget everything's around me.

I let me be guided by music, to find my purpose and be free.

When I open my eyes is like if everything had changed.

And it is not because the world has changed, but because the music has the power to make things look better and more easy.

"I believe that my journey in this world has a purpose"

@BehindTheWORLD

#music #life <3

"But I gotta keep trying, gotta keep my head held high" - MileyCyrus

Salvar

Being MYSELF

hello, my name is C... 

im here today because,I need to get rid of all the things that bother me ...

There are many problems, many themes, many things, many people trying

 to survive in a place where people try to lie us down, judging us, attacking us ...
I'm tired of being silent when what I want to do is talk ... I'm not the kind of

 person who likes to be quiet when something is bothering me ...
But I am also a human and need to vent, and I have the feeling that this is the

 most appropriate place for this.

In all my life until today I have been and continue to be the one who hears 

the problems of others, who advises, who tries to help ...
but what about me?
Who is listening my problems?
Who is trying to help me?
no one....
until today the people I have trusted have been very disappointing ...
All people say I have a complicated way, because I say everything I think, whether

 good or bad, if I think a person did something wrong or bad, I say directly ...
But sometimes my frontality hurts people ...and I know it

But my intention is not to hurt, it is to try to show people that they can be better,

 that they should fight for what they want and what they believe
All the people that know me say that I'm like my father ...
Because we have this character
We are ironic, sarcastic, overly direct
But I prefer to be like this ... I prefer to walk with my head held high because I told

 a person that she did something I didnt like, than talking on the back of that person

I mean ... I'm not going to put my hand on your head and say "it's okay, dont worry"

 if you do something wrong, right?
Because if I'm really your friend I'm going to tell the truth in your face ... not on your back...

I do not know if I'm explaining what I really mean but I love my family and my friends

 and I just want the best for them ... I want to help them ... even if they do not help me.
And in my opinion, that means being honest with them and myself.

@BehindTheWORLD

Believe Yourself

 

Sometimes you look around and you dont know why some people act like they know you if they even dont like you.

 They wants to know you better than himself.

Its like if everything that you know, that you say,that you believe,think or does, makes no sense.

when you look that people you start thinking and asking yourself if they had no life, if your life is so importante like that, and youre so focused on what others think about you,that you even stop dreaming.

But here's what I think:

     youre life is not importante to them

they dont care if youre ok

they dont care if you have some problems

they dont wants to help you

they only wants to know something bad about you and your life, and try to makes you feel sad, to judge you...

People are bad.

They can be happy only if they do something bad to the other people.

They push you  down so you need to be more stronger than them, be confdent.

Believe yourself and keep smiling because I know that youre smile is the only weapon to destroy them.

NEVER FORGET IT

@BehindTheWORLD

"life is worth living so live another day...people make mistakes,only god can judge me" -JustinBieber